Direction?

         This is an open letter, to all who wish to read.  I am very distraught in my time here.  I have just about everything that anyone could want in this world.  Yet I am depressed beyond belief only because I know I am not fulfilling my purpose.  As a man my job is what I do, I just can't wrap my fingers around the fact that I know I am working where I don't belong.  This leaves me feeling empty.
I am always so happy and grateful for everything, but with being sick and depressed most the time, it is hard to put motivation to work for me and achieve the goals I have set for myself.

        It is my desire to personally meet and help others find what their life purpose is, a life coach.  To be able to work with someone who wants to achieve more in their lives and help them reach the top, wherever it may be for them.  Truly my gift is with people, and I need to use it.  There is no reason for me to be depressed so much, other than my chronic migraines I am perfectly healthy.  I have a beautiful wife, with who I have been with for 8 years.  Two wonderful sons, age 3 and 1, a rescue greyhound who I adore, a very affordable but more than necessary house that is big for my family, amazing relatives who are proud of me and happy, plus some of the truest friends a man could ever ask for.  I have no reason to be melancholy except in the area of work.  Which is another thing, I love my boss, who I consider more of a friend than a boss,  who has given me everything I could ever need, including a great paying position and benefits, but if I am not fulfilled, so I need to ask myself, is that everything?

        I am quite thankful for all of these things.  Especially when it comes to my job.  Although, I will not feel the joy that I need to feel unless I am helping others through their careers and tough times.  I want to help people achieve their dreams.  I need to be mobile, always in motion, always talking and helping other people.  I cannot be stagnant, immobile, this adds to my despair.  So I wake up this morning, and take my responsibilities into my own hands, to dream a bit more and act on my thoughts.  If I must change things than right now is the best time to do that.  So I choose to walk on my own, through a ever changing world.  To soldier on for a true cause, my cause, to make me whole.

What do you see in your present?

Dreams and goals. Goals and dreams.  In school that's all everyone used to talk about.  What are you going to be when you grow up?  How many times have we heard that.  It seemed different back then, like we were going to choose our destiny, instead it seems our destiny chooses us.  If you have had a passion in your life that needs to be fulfilled do not rest until it has come to pass.  Your life will be meaningless without the completion of your dream.  We cannot be content with mediocrity and being comfortable.  To achieve more often we must risk more, and when it doesn't work out, you pick yourself up with a smile and keep going.  Your not a failure until you quit.  Take pride in your dreams, and make them work for you.  Break all of the barriers and norms of this life, if you want to be or do something bad enough then nothing can stop you.  Remove the barriers and fulfill your destiny.

Why you are a failure.

Well, I am being sarcastic here.

 I do not believe anyone should be a failure.  Although the key to figuring out where in life you want to go lies within your own mind and soul.  If you feel you are a failure, the way to eradicate that feeling would be to first recognize that you are this way.  Second thing I would do is write a list of all the positive things about my self, and then the negative things.  Be honest, brutally honest.  Its a tough thing to do but on the page where you write will reveal the facts that show everything.  What your list will show you is exactly which habits in your life are destroying you and which ones are creating value in you life.  The goal is to list those good and bad habits in order of importance.  Which negative habits are destroying you the most, start there and list down.  Which habits are the best, write them down in the order you think is most important.  After you make your prioritized lists.  Look at only the top two things, one on each column.  Now comes the hard part, making a plan or an organized routine that cultivates the positive behavior, while you either stop the negative, or slowly wean yourself off of it, whatever it may be.

You see, when it comes to being successful, you must make conscious decisions.  How could you be mad a someone who worked everyday to be successful, when all you did everyday after work is eat, watch TV and fall asleep.  When they got home from work they ate, studied, or maybe invented something in their garage and started selling it.  Now they have extra money, and you sit there and look at them and say, "Its not fair".
When in all reality, it is fair.  They worked everyday, first to feed a vision that they had, then to turn that vision into a reality.  They made conscious decisions to better their lives and worked toward that goal.  So don't be bitter about how they achieved and you didn't.  They just adjusted their habits, they altered their routine.  Then they made conscious decisions in their daily lives that ultimately changed their future for the better.  Don't get stuck in making decisions on auto piliot.

The keys to being successful, isn't some wizard fairy tale or hocus pocus.  It is a daily change that you make in your life, and over time, those daily decisions build on each other to bring you to your desired outcome.  Which of course works the other way to, laziness and unorganization can become habits that will surely lead to a future of stagnation and bitterness.  That is why it is so important to destroy bad habits, set a daily routine, and most of all importance,  stay consistent.  There is no momentum gained with inconsistency. 

John Maxwell once said, "You will never change your life until you change something you do daily".