Direction?

         This is an open letter, to all who wish to read.  I am very distraught in my time here.  I have just about everything that anyone could want in this world.  Yet I am depressed beyond belief only because I know I am not fulfilling my purpose.  As a man my job is what I do, I just can't wrap my fingers around the fact that I know I am working where I don't belong.  This leaves me feeling empty.
I am always so happy and grateful for everything, but with being sick and depressed most the time, it is hard to put motivation to work for me and achieve the goals I have set for myself.

        It is my desire to personally meet and help others find what their life purpose is, a life coach.  To be able to work with someone who wants to achieve more in their lives and help them reach the top, wherever it may be for them.  Truly my gift is with people, and I need to use it.  There is no reason for me to be depressed so much, other than my chronic migraines I am perfectly healthy.  I have a beautiful wife, with who I have been with for 8 years.  Two wonderful sons, age 3 and 1, a rescue greyhound who I adore, a very affordable but more than necessary house that is big for my family, amazing relatives who are proud of me and happy, plus some of the truest friends a man could ever ask for.  I have no reason to be melancholy except in the area of work.  Which is another thing, I love my boss, who I consider more of a friend than a boss,  who has given me everything I could ever need, including a great paying position and benefits, but if I am not fulfilled, so I need to ask myself, is that everything?

        I am quite thankful for all of these things.  Especially when it comes to my job.  Although, I will not feel the joy that I need to feel unless I am helping others through their careers and tough times.  I want to help people achieve their dreams.  I need to be mobile, always in motion, always talking and helping other people.  I cannot be stagnant, immobile, this adds to my despair.  So I wake up this morning, and take my responsibilities into my own hands, to dream a bit more and act on my thoughts.  If I must change things than right now is the best time to do that.  So I choose to walk on my own, through a ever changing world.  To soldier on for a true cause, my cause, to make me whole.